"Oh my darling, please don't express your love for me. For I may not be able to take up this responsibility to reciprocate as much as you do.
When I'm ready, I will tell you. Till then, I hope you still Feel the same abt me." -Meow

Here am I blogging with my iPhone. Ugh kinda suck but oh wells, make do with it since I'm lazy to get up and use the lappie.
Quarrelled with Mosa today. Abt my salary. Stupid company have been dragging my pay for so long. Complained to Mosa. He called my supervisor and asked her. Then Mosa called me and told me to text Sharon the dates I've worked, the time, my account number, and full name.
I was pissed. Cos why must I text her my working hours and the days when I've forgotten and did not keep track. Well, I thought it was the company's responsibility to keep track since they're afraid, us, students will say any random dates thus cheating their money. So then again, what's the point of me telling Sharon? After much hesitations and advices from Mosa i confirmed with Sharon the dates.
And I got one of the dates wrong. It was so embarrassing for me bcos this questions my integrity. And this involves money. Not so much on pride, actually. But money, and trust. Mosa said it was a small matter and that Sharon would not don't trust me etc.


Perhaps it's just my personality. And me not wanting to have bad records bcos i would like to work for this company.
I mean it's fine. The pay is reasonable and all... Just that it's a very independent kind of work la. sometimes you've to do things alone, without anybody's help. Meaning they won't teach u etc. this is your job scoope. Means u have to by hook or by crook, settle it yourself.
But I don't mind. I really don't. Although Leon tend to kid me with saying like, "must do something ah, don't cheat my money." I mean, it's YOUR money or the company's? Of course I'm doing something if not You would have fired me long ago right.
Sharon's nice. She treats her workers with respect.. Just that she can be straight forward and I really. Really. Hate. It.
Like that time, I helped the mascots take pic. (I wasn't sure I was helping the mascots take pic. Cos Keith just throw me the camera like that. And that Leon also asked me to help. I thought I was helping the company take pic) so during the performance when I asked Sharon if I could go infrount and take pic, she was like, "NO you cannot do that. By right u shud be working, not helping them take pics) Them? Who is them? Well I thought its the company. And also Leon's one of them who asked me to do it. So what now? Now I'm not doing my job? Oh my lord. Hell yeah.. But I'm to blame for my ignorance, too. I shud have asked.


So anyway back to Mosa. And me. I was really frustrated bcos he's the one who told me to tell Sharon the dates. He sounded like as if it's a must. I told the wrong dates. Integrity questioned. And so, he was indirectly, the cause of it.
Argued with him over the phone. He can't be blamed. This guy just wanted me to get my pay asap since I've been feeling moody these few days because of not getting my pay. He just wants me to get it quick, without further more delays.
He had gd intentions. But I told him to fuck off serveral times. Like getting outta my life etc.
I didn't mean to. Until now, I still feel so guilty.. But then, I was really angry that time. I was pissed.
Because if I never tell Sharon the dates, all these wouldn't happen.
Instead of blaming myself for the dates, I blamed Mosa. Entirely. No matter how he is in the fault, I shouldn't have said that. Sorry.
Mosa was very patient with me throughout the whole argument unlike other boyfriends who would add in drama. He's really a good boyfriend.


Until evening, he whatsapped me and said he's downstairs my house, pleaded with me to give him 5mins.
5mins only, I replied. Went downstairs, with every thought to hug him tightly and tell him I love him but then, no, I reminded myself. I am angry. With him. I saw him with that remorseful face no words could explained. He's lovely.
He passed me blue flowers and chocolates (because I tweeted that I had craves for chocolates), and gong cha (which I mentioned I wanted to drink gong cha on my bed while whatsapping with him)


He's perfect. Or at least, he treats me perfectly.
As he pass me the plastic bag, he hugged me. I teared... For the first time face to face. Infrount of my boyfriend.
There were many times he heard me cry on the phone.. Saw me cry on face time. But never, face to face.
I did not ever want to cry infrount of any boys at all, even of he's my boyfriend, I don't want any boys to witness the vulnerable side of me. I hate it. I really do. But at that point of time, something reminded me. Mosa doesn't judge me. He loves me for who I am.
Friends asked me, "Do you behave like this infrount of ur boyfriend?" I proudly say yes. Bcos he doesn't judge me at all.
He loves everything of me. The imperfections and all. So why do I have to feel distance towards him when I cry? No. I don't have to.
Maybe bcos he's a guy. I've seen fb, twitter etc, how many girls complained abt they bf. how many girls r hurt by boys.
That is then, became a boundary. I created boundaries. Mosa's different. He's really different.. And I'm really lucky to have him.
He can handle me. Me being a bitch.. Me being childish. Me being.vulnerable. Me being rebellious and temperamental.
Even when times I mentioned I want to find a rich bf. I want an ultra handsome bf. He only pout, never ever reprimand me, never get back at me. This guy.. Is one of the extinctions already.


Germaine told me... "I think he's crazily in love with you."
Even my friends could see that. I can definitely see how much effort and love he puts in me.


We walked thru the night... Under the moon.
Mosa made his way from yew tee all the way here just to apologise with gifts. (at least not empty handed as always,haha)
Not forgetting the cb useless smrt which is not working or working as slow as a pig. (an expensive pig though talking abt adult fare) Mosa still made his way here. Plus, he's sick. :(
I felt really bad.. Because its just too nice, nice already.
The texts and all. Can't help. A girl is soft hearted. Yes, no?


This song is so NICE OHMY. :)



Same song Sang by the twins.
You can hear double voices, it's really damn nice. :D
And they're so gorgeous right omg!!! This is for me la, my definetion of pretty!!!!
Talk about perfection...

LOL I would definitely go for one of them if i'm a guy. HAHAHAHAHA. PRETTYYYYYY

BROKE

FUCK hotmail is so fking irritating. I dont know why i cant click on the mails. FUCK.

And idk why facebook and twitter is upgrading to the worst. So messy. DAMN MESSY.

Everything on the internet is pissing me off to the max. -_-

Face time with boyfriend. Hahaha

Look at this boy with double eyelids. I feel his double eyelids is damn perfect la.

It's not too hardcore and quite obvious. This is the desired double eyelids I want.

But if I'm destined to have single eyelids, then so be it :) I'm happy too.

I will never ever change anything about what my parents gave me no matter how ugly I am. (Plus ugly is nothing compared to a good heart.. just being random lol)

HEHEHEHEHE :b

UGHHH back to my life.

Went out with Germaine and Jiaxin two days ago. FUCKING FUN SIA OMFG.

I had never had such moments with any friends before.

I mean like why ARE WE so FUNNY? :)

I swear i cant find a single bitchiness in them manz, which makes everything funnnn. :D

Shopping shopping. Testing out beautiful clothes.... spending money.

Had fish and co for dinner because of my sudden craving for fish and co!

Jiaxin saw the directory that there is FISH AND CO at somerset 313.

But then.. when we walked into the restaurant, we realised that it wasn't fish and co.

Yes it's BY fish and co but it's called FISH. In other words, it's not fish and co, as the prices were overpriced... and as we looked at the servings, the portion is damn small la OH MY LORD.

But we were stucked at the restaurant right? Cos we already went in ma....

So we were discussing how the hell to escape. DAMN EPIC MAN.

This Germaine suggested to say, "Oh sorry we're rushing to a concert."

but then thinking abt it, if we're rushing for a concert we wont even be there, right?

Then she suggested, "Oh sorry we have a diarrhoea."

But then again... it's too fake.

So then, me the expert and most truthful person suggested.. "Why not we just tell the truth?"

yes it's direct but it's real, and not FAKE right. plus not like we were very good actresses. hahahaha. So I told the waitress to come. She was like, getting ready to jot down the food, and here she says.. "So what is your order?" I just immediately said, "Oh cos hmm we thought that this is fish and co." Waitress: "Oh, no, this is not fish and co.... just one of the branches." Me: "Ya so I see that the prices are a bit overpriced. So ya, we need to go and find the REAL fish and co."

Waitress: (Trying not to laugh) Jiaxin laughed like hell. LOL.

K ah ya i was too straight forward but the ambience was really funny lor. And we were all very hungry. adding on to the fact that I've got a fucking curfew!!! so yeah.

We immediately walked out of the restaurant. Germaine was like, "Hey i think we should run"

Then we just rush out, without looking back HAHAHAHA.

So after Jiaxin giving us a lot of wrong directions, we finally reached FISH AND CO!!

laughing out loud all the way. Germaine LQH damn funny i swear.

Had New york fish and chips. Very nice. the fries also very nice. but the portion is.... not enough for me :( Idiot right. Was still hungry even after eating it... AT SLOW PACE + DRINKING LOTS OF WATER.

Ask me to eat fish and co again? Most probably not. But the crab meat spagetti was nice.. and i think shud be quite filling. So if i ever step into that restaurant, either i eat 2 plates of fish and chips (which is impossible) or shall order that spagetti. HEH.

And talking abt food.... PASTAMANIA SUCK.

Fuck it's so disgusting I will never eat that again. So CREAMY AND EEEEW.

First few minutes, when you taste, it's very nice and omg you yearn for itttt... but as you go on eating... you'll be like damn sick of it la.

Almost vomit when I ate everything. EEEW

K... anyway,

I'll be getting my pay like next week omg next fucking week. -_-

And the worst thing is.. I left nothing now, not even a cent. And I owe my Mum a lot of money.

Great right?? So insecure without money. you know what? That Mosa also no money.

Walao fuck it la. No money can go where??? These few days I've been yearning for money.

Yearn also fuck use. Just wait till next week la hais.

I wonder what if I got a rich boyfriend? Ohmygod how good la. :(

Dont even need to worry abt anything. The most is worry if he cheats on you but so what? besides that, you're secured. You can buy anything you like.. do not need to work so hard for a pathetic "SUM" of money. Hmph. Will not ever happen to me one.

My this life hor, is zhu ding suffer and SLOG hard one.

Shall just go rot or sleep or watch tv.... making use of any/every facilities at home. WOW COOL RIGHT?! -______- Or maybe just continue my gg show.

Will be going Sentosa with bf to take pictures tmrw!!! and then east coast beach at night to catch sun set. Then eat satay bee hoon for dinner!!! Besides satay bee hoon, everything is free right?

All these activities suit my wallet. ugh

OH AND...

I will not say stay tuned to my pictures la. But yeah, I think i'll take a couple of beautiful scenery! yay. Basically this is the only thing worth looking for for tomorrow.

I fucking need my pay now. I need to return my Mum money! and shop more. more. more!!! for Chinese New Year clothes? Hah, talking about not last minute. :)

Ok so! I've been working for entirely 5 days as an event co-ordinator and not forgetting tomorrow too, as a replacement cos Dezi suddenly called me and asked me if I could replace her. Ok ah, more money! so I agreed lor.

WORK is tiring. And yes, like what most people say, working IS not easy.

It consumed a lot of physical energy. And I think the worst part is sometimes ppl (esp kids) dont listen to instructions. This work made me realise that Sporeans dont like listening to instructions. And.. I'm one of them. But at least I can read. "Do not touch the figurines." Obvious right?

But some parents still even encourage their children to touch and take a pic. WTF?

Some children... are just too playful, not that they cant listen to instructions. but the parents...?

This work makes me dislike children actually. But some are really cute I wanna KISS and PINCH their faces hahaha too cute already. oh and yes I AM BIASED.

I allow those cute ones to touch the figurines, and to let them hang around near the stage, but not those NOT cute ones.. who got the qian bian face hahaha.. I know I very mean la.

First time earning MY OWN money. and the feeling is ji shuang de lo!

Like u dont have to rely on parents to give u money.. just cos u want to buy the things u like etc.

I mean like, you're not a kid anymore. So as much as I can, I will try to avoid asking parents for money unless they take the first step and give me 20 bucks or so. :)

Although they're my parents, I will still feel embarrassed taking their money. :(

Do you guys feel the same way too? And somemore, still need to see if they're in a good mood or not.. (which doesnt happens often, thats the prob)

Yeap... besides that, working is ok. Sometimes air con too cold wtf cos in shopping mall ma.

My colleagues are insanely funny. We kept talking shits at backstage while folding the boxes..

until all of us gets tired hungry and moody then the jokes start to fade.

But still, love working with them! Quite ok :)

Unlike some boring ass colleagues. Camwhoring when there are not much people~

Ahlin and me. Pictures taken from iphone.

SHAHID! :)


Devi and me.

Outing with hubby for a good meal~

When was it taken.. Oh after I was back from Bali!

Then we catch breaking dawn. Breaking dawn was okay ah.. Not as exciting as expected.

But it's cool watching sex scenes with ur partner hahaha just kidding la.

Too many sex scenes, no good. jitao boring.

I think part 2 will be exactly what we wanna see. The outcome.. the ending.. the baby.. etc.

So yeah, will be looking forward for it! :D

As always, bf who has always been really sweet and thoughtful.. cut the steak for me.

It's really HARD la. and damn chewy. hehehehe. :D:D:D

Damn lazy to upload pictures on blogger. So just upload a few from Bali trip. Trip to Bali was fun. went for hot spring, saw volcanoes, water falls, wooo~
Remember one of the days, we need to climb the dont know what just to see the waterfall. It was a disappointment because the journey was really hard...
And when the journey is hard, it's natural that we all expect a very beautiful scenery right? But no, the waterfall was okay only. Those very large kind.. Only me, bro, aunt and uncle climbed.

Mum and 2nd aunt didnt, because they felt dizzy halfway thru the journey.

K ah honestly, compared Bali to China's scenery, China is much better. The scenery is like damn nice, like you're seeing a painting. like the whole scenery is painted. and you're in the painting yknow that kind of feeling?

Didn't really get to shop due to time limit. Would love to stay there for more days!

Anyway, this is a monkey with baby monkey. More pictures on facebook.

I saw the sweetest scene in the world. Father monkey fighting Mother monkey to get baby monkey! cos the baby monkey was drinking milk from the mother monkey boobs ma, then obviously cannot halfway then stop right. So she fought hard with the father monkey cos. he wanted to snatch baby monkey away!

The crowd were stunned. Must be they didn't expect themselves being able to witness this kind of exciting real life things. Bet discovery channel also will not be able to film this kind of scene unless lucky. HEHEHE..

And this is Bali's volcanooooo. We were sitting at a restaurant which is opposite the volcano.

And our personal driver said that, if it really erupts at the moment, the place we were sitting, will be the first to experience the eruption. In other words, we will the first to die. LOL.

It was really challenging hahahaha..

So yeah.. a lot of things to say regarding my Bali trip. But ugh, I prefer to say it from my mouth then typing. heh. Super lazy.

Birthday was great. Parents bought me this expensive gift. And I really appreciate it a lot.
Apart from one of the weakness, battery run out too fast, everything's useful. hehehe.. :D

AND...

Hubby's gonna buy me this very chio hp cover as my xmas present. omg!!

so this is how it looks like..

Nice or what!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D

YA LA is I chose one thats why nice. HAHAHA JK CAN OR NOT.

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Besides my parents giving me surprise, not forgetting my boyfriend who loves me dearly.. got ready a 'lame' surprise for me. Ok ah, at least can see the effort. Hahaha.

Oh... i didnt have any cake on my birthday. What is a birthday without a birthday cake?

I guess because family thought that boyfriend will prepare a cake for me.

while boyfriend thinks that family will prepare a cake for me, so end up, no cake!!!

Sometimes "great minds think alike" isn't very helpful, eh? :(

Nvm, cake only. Talking bout cakes now.. I feel like eating chocolate cake/brownie/cookie.

I miss cookies at subway!!! haha, k random shiet.

Ya so these r the pictures taken on my birthday...

Ok uh... uploaded a few only. Tiring.

Life has been great.

LIFE HAS BEEN FINE. PLEASE REMAIN LIKE THIS.