"Oh my darling, please don't express your love for me. For I may not be able to take up this responsibility to reciprocate as much as you do.
When I'm ready, I will tell you. Till then, I hope you still Feel the same abt me." -Meow

Here am I blogging with my iPhone. Ugh kinda suck but oh wells, make do with it since I'm lazy to get up and use the lappie.
Quarrelled with Mosa today. Abt my salary. Stupid company have been dragging my pay for so long. Complained to Mosa. He called my supervisor and asked her. Then Mosa called me and told me to text Sharon the dates I've worked, the time, my account number, and full name.
I was pissed. Cos why must I text her my working hours and the days when I've forgotten and did not keep track. Well, I thought it was the company's responsibility to keep track since they're afraid, us, students will say any random dates thus cheating their money. So then again, what's the point of me telling Sharon? After much hesitations and advices from Mosa i confirmed with Sharon the dates.
And I got one of the dates wrong. It was so embarrassing for me bcos this questions my integrity. And this involves money. Not so much on pride, actually. But money, and trust. Mosa said it was a small matter and that Sharon would not don't trust me etc.


Perhaps it's just my personality. And me not wanting to have bad records bcos i would like to work for this company.
I mean it's fine. The pay is reasonable and all... Just that it's a very independent kind of work la. sometimes you've to do things alone, without anybody's help. Meaning they won't teach u etc. this is your job scoope. Means u have to by hook or by crook, settle it yourself.
But I don't mind. I really don't. Although Leon tend to kid me with saying like, "must do something ah, don't cheat my money." I mean, it's YOUR money or the company's? Of course I'm doing something if not You would have fired me long ago right.
Sharon's nice. She treats her workers with respect.. Just that she can be straight forward and I really. Really. Hate. It.
Like that time, I helped the mascots take pic. (I wasn't sure I was helping the mascots take pic. Cos Keith just throw me the camera like that. And that Leon also asked me to help. I thought I was helping the company take pic) so during the performance when I asked Sharon if I could go infrount and take pic, she was like, "NO you cannot do that. By right u shud be working, not helping them take pics) Them? Who is them? Well I thought its the company. And also Leon's one of them who asked me to do it. So what now? Now I'm not doing my job? Oh my lord. Hell yeah.. But I'm to blame for my ignorance, too. I shud have asked.


So anyway back to Mosa. And me. I was really frustrated bcos he's the one who told me to tell Sharon the dates. He sounded like as if it's a must. I told the wrong dates. Integrity questioned. And so, he was indirectly, the cause of it.
Argued with him over the phone. He can't be blamed. This guy just wanted me to get my pay asap since I've been feeling moody these few days because of not getting my pay. He just wants me to get it quick, without further more delays.
He had gd intentions. But I told him to fuck off serveral times. Like getting outta my life etc.
I didn't mean to. Until now, I still feel so guilty.. But then, I was really angry that time. I was pissed.
Because if I never tell Sharon the dates, all these wouldn't happen.
Instead of blaming myself for the dates, I blamed Mosa. Entirely. No matter how he is in the fault, I shouldn't have said that. Sorry.
Mosa was very patient with me throughout the whole argument unlike other boyfriends who would add in drama. He's really a good boyfriend.


Until evening, he whatsapped me and said he's downstairs my house, pleaded with me to give him 5mins.
5mins only, I replied. Went downstairs, with every thought to hug him tightly and tell him I love him but then, no, I reminded myself. I am angry. With him. I saw him with that remorseful face no words could explained. He's lovely.
He passed me blue flowers and chocolates (because I tweeted that I had craves for chocolates), and gong cha (which I mentioned I wanted to drink gong cha on my bed while whatsapping with him)


He's perfect. Or at least, he treats me perfectly.
As he pass me the plastic bag, he hugged me. I teared... For the first time face to face. Infrount of my boyfriend.
There were many times he heard me cry on the phone.. Saw me cry on face time. But never, face to face.
I did not ever want to cry infrount of any boys at all, even of he's my boyfriend, I don't want any boys to witness the vulnerable side of me. I hate it. I really do. But at that point of time, something reminded me. Mosa doesn't judge me. He loves me for who I am.
Friends asked me, "Do you behave like this infrount of ur boyfriend?" I proudly say yes. Bcos he doesn't judge me at all.
He loves everything of me. The imperfections and all. So why do I have to feel distance towards him when I cry? No. I don't have to.
Maybe bcos he's a guy. I've seen fb, twitter etc, how many girls complained abt they bf. how many girls r hurt by boys.
That is then, became a boundary. I created boundaries. Mosa's different. He's really different.. And I'm really lucky to have him.
He can handle me. Me being a bitch.. Me being childish. Me being.vulnerable. Me being rebellious and temperamental.
Even when times I mentioned I want to find a rich bf. I want an ultra handsome bf. He only pout, never ever reprimand me, never get back at me. This guy.. Is one of the extinctions already.


Germaine told me... "I think he's crazily in love with you."
Even my friends could see that. I can definitely see how much effort and love he puts in me.


We walked thru the night... Under the moon.
Mosa made his way from yew tee all the way here just to apologise with gifts. (at least not empty handed as always,haha)
Not forgetting the cb useless smrt which is not working or working as slow as a pig. (an expensive pig though talking abt adult fare) Mosa still made his way here. Plus, he's sick. :(
I felt really bad.. Because its just too nice, nice already.
The texts and all. Can't help. A girl is soft hearted. Yes, no?


This song is so NICE OHMY. :)



Same song Sang by the twins.
You can hear double voices, it's really damn nice. :D
And they're so gorgeous right omg!!! This is for me la, my definetion of pretty!!!!
Talk about perfection...

LOL I would definitely go for one of them if i'm a guy. HAHAHAHAHA. PRETTYYYYYY